Madam President, Queen of Snark (kellinator) wrote,
Madam President, Queen of Snark

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Letting the days go by

I knew there was something about the date today, but I couldn't remember what.

Then it hit me. Today would have been Joe's and my fourth anniversary.

(Well, we named it "our anniversary" retroactively; we were just friends going to the Rolling Stones concert together, and dinner at Amerigo's afterwards. You gotta admit that's a pretty spectacular first date. We had our first kiss a month later.)

I got an email from him today. He didn't mention it; I wonder if he remembered or not. I hope he didn't. I want him to go on and be happy. I want that so much for him.

I just... I don't think I'll ever stop feeling weird about it. I mean, today could have been my wedding day! And for a long time I thought that was what I wanted, what I needed. And even though I believe I did the right thing in ending it, I still wonder if it could have played out any differently. I guess I'll always wonder.

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